雙語暢銷書《艾倫圖靈傳》第3章:思考什麼是思考(45)

Alan returned to Cambridge two or three weeks after this bittersweet ceremony, and so it was not long before James indicated that he would like to continue the sexual contact that Alan had sparked off.

艾倫在這次苦辣參半的儀式後的兩三週回到劍橋，過了不久，詹姆斯就表示，想要繼續和艾倫維持已經發生的性接觸。

But there was always a sense that Alan never again showed the initiative which the summer sun had elicited, and there was a complexity which James could never penetrate.

但是他有一種感覺，艾倫不像夏天那麼主動了，而且詹姆斯猜不透這是爲什麼。

The associations of Christopher, which Alan did not share with James, might have been part of the reason.

也許，艾倫沒與詹姆斯談過的克里斯朵夫，就是一部分原因。

The visit would have refreshed the memory of pure, intense romantic love, of a kind which did not exist within his relationship with James.

這次造訪使艾倫回憶起激烈而浪漫的愛情，這是他與詹姆斯之間不存在的關係。

Instead, they were satisfied with an easy-going sexual friendship in which there was no pretence of being in love.

他們很滿足於自然的性友誼，他們並沒有假裝出愛情來。

But at least Alan knew that he was not alone.

但是這樣至少可以使艾倫覺得不孤單了。

Sometimes he seemed ruffled.

有時候，艾倫似乎也會被激怒。

At the Founder's Feast in December 1933, there was an incident when an undergraduate from James's old school said to Alan in an obnoxious manner, 'Don't look at me like that, I'm not a homosexual.'

1933年12月，在開拓者宴會上，當來自詹姆斯母校的大學生，以討厭的口吻對艾倫說話時就引起了衝突，他對艾倫說：你別看着我，我不是同性戀。